When I first started coming to camp, people talked about it being different from the regular world. It’s a place where people love and respect each other just for showing up and being who they are. People would often say that camp is the family that they chose. That is my ideal version of camp.
I have been trying my best to stay true to those camp ideals during all of the deciding, polls and discussion this summer. I had been doing ok.
Lately it’s getting more and more difficult to stay in that camp frame of mind.
Our second poll is ending Tuesday. Once I know those results I will send them to a guest blogger. Lynne Fairchild has graciously agreed to help me out, so she’ll be sharing those results. I’m delegating that last task and then I’m going to take a sabbatical.
I need a break. I’m hoping that when it’s time to start planning camp again this winter I’ll feel better. Hopefully I’ll feel more like camp can still be the place I imagine it is. That it’s a place where I belong, and something that I want to orchestrate.
Hearing that I’m having difficulty and taking this break might make you feel like giving me feedback and support. I appreciate that and I’d want to do the same thing. What I think I really need right now is space, even space from positive comments and support.
I’m sorry if this seems sudden. Honestly it’s a surprise to me too. I thought I’d be ok with the polls, but months of dealing with this has worn me down. I set up the polls to help me get information from everyone. I still believe it was the right thing, but it’s turned out to be very difficult for me personally.
The discussion here on the blogs can continue as long as you want.
Please be kind to each other.
I love you all,